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Some notes on free television programs (the ones that come one without paying for cable and not getting cable illegally):
(1) Female soap opera actors overact. It's pathetic.
(2) The only daytime shows are: soaps, paid programs (read: lond advertisements), talk shows (judge ______ shows fall in this category), and dating shows. That's it.
(3) They all suck.
(4) Hardcore porn has better plotlines and plot twists than soaps.
(5) PBS for Kids (Teletubbies, Clifford the Big Red Dog, etc) is more interesting.
(6) Television is not spongeworthy (and if you get this reference, my props)

In the rest of my day, i finally visited my grandfather. i think he's getting close to dying. i'm not even sure if he'll make it out of the hospital again. He's awake and alert and talkative, etc, but the problems just keep piling up. So far, two of his veins have burst around his esophagus (and these have been fixed). The doctors say that if another bursts, they'll have to put a stint in him…and there's no guarantee, nor is there a good chance of sruvival because he's so high risk. He's becoming delusional now…either because of ICU Dementia or his last days…we can't tell because he's in ICU. The good thing is that he is at peace with everything. He's ok with dying now. That's a big relief for me because the last time he was in the hospital (3 weeks ago), he was so afraid of death, it was frightening. “Forged in fires of human passion, choking on the fumes of selfish rage…with these our hells and our heavens–so few inches apart–we must be awfully small and not as strong as we think we are.” i think that about nails it on the head, Mr. Mullins. “When you love, you walk on the water just don't stumble on the waves. We all want to go there somethin' awful, but to stand there it takes some grace 'cause oh, we are not as strong as we think we are.” Heh…i think Rich Mullins knew the human condition only too well. Every song of his just seems to nail it on the head. He may be one of the least recognized philosophers (if even one), but his words ring dead-on.